Day 19 of 21 Day Challenge of No Desserts review. I plan to stop here….

So I come from a family that LOVES desserts. LOOOOOOOOOOOVES! Did I make that clear enough?

I never cared much for soda(except for at birthday parties when I was little, I really knew how to party. Ha!) and fried food wasn’t much of my thing, one of those things that I’d eat very rarely.

But when it came to sweets, especially around that “time of month” I wanted chocolate like NOW! I’ve always been like that. Not much the salty, but more the sweet.


Anyway, one of my bloggers that I’ve been following for quite some time Janae(hungryrunnergirl) is a killer runner, not literally, but A-MAZING with the cutest little girl. But, she loves sweets as much if not more than I do.

She decided to take on the 21 day challenge. Now, when I first started, I called it, “21 Day No Sugar Challenge” where you shouldn’t eat anything with sugar(bread, crackers, desserts, cereals, maple syrup, etc.)

But, then I figured that desserts are more of my biggest weakness so that’s why I switched it to “21 Day No Dessert Challenge”.


Let’s begin with the pro’s and con’s of this challenge……..


1. I felt less irritable, bloated, and slightly less fatigued from that “time of month”.

2. I had to eat fruit to curb my cravings. Which helped, a lot! Bring on the peaches and fruit trays!

3. The more vegetables I ate the less I craved the sweets and crap, even during the “time of month”.

4. I lost 3-4lbs. Not a lot but every little bit counts.

5. I got to eat PB more crazy comfortably because I didn’t have as much “fattening” food in my diet since sweets are kicked out.


1. The first few days will be the hardest. You will feel irritable, fatigued, lost, and hopeless.

2. It may be a little hard at events with desserts around you but stick to your guns.

3. Family and friends will be pressuring you more to eat dessert at events.



I hid the Enjoy Life Chocolate chips in the house. That helped, A LOT!

When friends/family/coworkers tried to encourage me to eat a piece of cake or frozen yogurt, I just told them no thanks and pushed the dessert away and told them the challenge that I’m doing. They understood and accepted.

Make sure there’s NO special events coming up before you take on the challenge, *cough* my dad’s 50th birthday *cough*.

I was in charge of making the cake, so I ate, brushed my teeth, and listened to music through ear buds to ignore the taunting from the cake batter and cream cheese icing to try them.

I downloaded a picture off google that says, “Keep Calm and No Sugar” and set it as my lock screen background on my phone, that helped a lot. :)

When I was facing a dessert and/or saw other people around me eating a dessert, I reminded myself how I’d feel physically/mentally if I would have eaten it.


The point is, it’s good to challenge ourselves to prove that we can escape from an addiction. Like an alcoholic, smoker, etc. sugar is also one of the most addicting things out there, I mean, look at oreos. I haven’t eaten one in years and now I’m afraid to even have one because I can get addicted to chocolate sugary dreamy desserts easily. Seriously.

The reason why I stopped at day 19 is because it IS my dad’s 50th birthday part today and I want to enjoy it with a slice of cake(maybe) and not restrict myself.

I now see, that I can overcome the temptations and challenges that are thrown at me.

Maybe, down the road though, I will do the full blown 21 Day No SUGAR Challenge. But for now, I’m going to enjoy myself and work on not going as crazy with desserts as I had before. :)

Yes, I would recommend this challenge to anyone that is willing to take it on and if you do, good freakin luck! ;)




“Stupid” Feelings

This post will be hard for me to show, but, after years, I feel like it’s time too. I hope it helps you with whatever struggles you’re going through. Especially when it comes to school, life, relationships, jobs, etc.


When I was in grade school, before my brother and I were homeschooled, I struggled, BAD. I’d come home, when I was in 4th grade with homework, the worse one was math. I’d try, try, and try as hard as I could to understand it, but I had a hard time with it. My mom would try to help me, but, I’d just end up in tears, bawling my eyes out calling myself “Stupid”. She’d try to calm me by saying that I wasn’t stupid, that I was made special, the way God made me.

I then started getting bad migraines, a lot, and my parents thought I needed glasses, which then found out, it was just the stress of all the homework. I came home a couple of times, leaving my homework back at school to say I didn’t have any.

When I was at school, we would do multiplication speed tests, I ALWAYS got most of the problems wrong, the embarrassing part? Once we finished, we had to switch our papers with the student in front of us and we had to check each other’s own work to see if they were correct.

I had a few times where the math teacher would try to help me. I’d try to fix my mistakes when she handed the paper back to me and I’d still get them wrong, so I’d try to hold the tears back, right in class.

I also had a hard time, for years, learning how to count change.

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When I hit 9th grade, mom felt a strong calling from God to homeschool my brother and I, to this day, I don’t regret it.

But, my math and learning challenges were still following me.

I still cried through my high school years, comparing myself to my brother, who I always felt was smarter then me. While my mom was trying her hardest to encourage me and be positive.

I tried to do pre algebra, wasn’t good at it, but tried. I never took Algebra 1 nor 2 nor any of the higher levels of math. I finally told my parents that I wasn’t planning on going to college. I was angry, pure anger towards the higher levels of math. I had problems with simple math for a while too.

I could study and study and study for tests and still struggle. My mom tried to make it easier for me, but even then, I’d still have some struggles with testing.

I hated my brain, hated the way I was, wanting to scream to God, asking why over and over. I hated the ACT, despised it, disagreed to how a stupid number defined the person about getting in college or not.

I did graduate High School though with good grades, thankfully, but I had to work my ass off to get there.

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Horses is what kept my mind off of school through grade school and high school though.

I started to discover the things I was good at, focusing more on those then the stuff I wasn’t good at. I loved writing DEEP stories with meanings and still do at times. I even started writing a book called, “Moonseed”. I loved grammar and science throughout school. I was never good at any sports except for riding horses and later, running.

I found out more and more down the road that I craved physical challenges. I love pushing my body to the max.

I remember a scene in the first Rocky movie, when Rocky takes his future wife out on their first date and as they were ice skating around he was talking about his childhood and was saying how he can’t use his brain well, that fighting is all he’s good at.

That part spoke to me.

“It Ain’t How Hard You Hit…It’s How Hard You Can Get Hit and Keep Moving Forward. It’s About How Much You Can Take And Keep Moving Forward!” –Rocky

School hit me, hard, I struggled, BAD, but, I pulled through.


The thing is, we’re all here for a reason.

We can waste our energy by focusing on things we’re not good at or save our energy and focus on things that we are.

There’s a quote I used a few months back that I like to repeat to myself sometimes,

“There will always, always, always be someone better then you at something. But, your goal is to be okay with that and move forward, become a better you and just embrace the God given talent you have.”

Something like that I said. :)

Sure, I still struggle, I still have tears, especially when it comes to tests, it’ll never leave me, but, my goal should be to push through, quit comparing myself, give it my best and forget the rest.

I’m a late bloomer.

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Embrace it. Don’t fight it.



Quintiles Marathon Race Recap(first time marathon!)

On with the good stuff….


After a delicious carb filled breakfast at Cracker Barrel we headed to the 12 pm race information session, they had a 3 pm to but we chose the 12. The expo was in a large tent, not the biggest expo, but set up really well and nice! :)

All the workers were VERY friendly and they even had two maps(half and full marathon course) set up for us to see in more detail.


The man was VERY informative and answered questions well. Everyone was SO nice and very encouraging, the workers are probably some of the best I’ve ever dealt with and very welcoming.

Since the race was one loop ran twice, there was an aid station at EVERY mile with porta potties included. It was also a Boston Qualifying course and very flat with very little rolling hills here and there and the only real hill was going up to the bridge.

He also had to warn us, that there was 50 feet of metal mesh on the bridge that they could do nothing about and that we needed to pick our feet up or run on the side walk.

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That night, we went to the pasta dinner at 7 pm. Frank shorter was the guest speaker, we had different kinds of pasta to choose from, a salad, bread, and banana pudding. Erin and I avoided sweets as much as possible leading up to the race for the 3 days and just focused on carbs, carbs, carbs. Now, for you all that don’t know who Frank Shorter is, he’s the last American to break the Olympic Marathon race in 1972(2 hrs and 12 mins) and no other American has beat it since. He was a super nice guy and even showed us a mini video of him in the 1972 marathon Olympics that was very inspiring.

The food was fabulous and they also gave away very cool door prizes. I also got to meet a chat with a couple of runners running their first full too.


The pasta dinner ended at 9 pm and we headed back to the hotel to get ready. I was a nervous wreck but was looking forward to using my new iphone armband and my headband that I also got from the expo. I also wore my favorite running leggings, Brooks Ghost 6, Balega thick socks, and my shirt I had made specially for the race that says, “Kayla Runs For”(front), “Team Maylin, Super Jake, and Teen Challenge”(back).


That morning, we had to get up 4:00 am and eat breakfast, the race started at 6:45 am. We bought oatmeal and bananas the night before so didn’t have to go downstairs to eat. I was already nervous and wished it would just go on and start at 5:45 am. I was pacing back and forth worried about the wall between miles 16-20. I packed 2 1/2 chomp packs and gu just in case and put them in my spibelt.

I also stuffed toilet paper in my little wrist zipper I got a while back.

They were also calling for rain. But, it was in the 50s outside that morning and felt chilly but not freezing, thankfully, and the rain wasn’t supposed to hit really till after the race.

We had to meet the trolley/buses at the shopping complex(at finish line) between 4:45 am and 6:15 am. We got there at 6:00 am and boarded.

We got there at 6:15 and jogged to the bathrooms as our mini warm up. But the time we got to the starting line, we had 10 mins left till they started the race.


I turned on my music(some Rocky Balboa themes in there ;) ) and the race started. We were off.

There was only 500 + marathoners and over 2,000 half marathoners(go figure). The course was just gorgeous! When I ran across the first bridge I looked out at the harbor and the view was just breath taking in the early morning overcast.

By mile 3, the next bridge, there was an ambulance already there to pick up a girl that hurt her leg really bad from where she tripped on the metal mesh that the leader originally warned us about. I decided to go onto the side walk for the next 2 times I had to run the bridge again. There was another guy down to but didn’t look like he was hurt.

They had mile marks set well and the people at the aid stations were fabulous and so friendly!

I hung out here and there with a couple of runners throughout the course.

At mile 11, the half marathoners cut off and the marathoners go on. I was still feeling good and making sure I stayed fueled and hit every aid station I could, I took in water and Gatorade mixed usually. I’d also check in with myself physically/mentally.

At mile 18, they had it in red numbers, my guess is for the wall.


I was determined to NOT HIT THAT WALL though. I did plenty of yoga the week of race and fueled well throughout the week. I also had motivating music, people, and runners helping me.

By mile 19, the top of my left foot started hurting and I had to stop for a second to do foot strength moves for it, which helped.

At mile 25, they handed out beer. Some aid stations had orange slices with twizzlers, a lot had GU, and one had a quarter of a banana, which I did take.

I was so happy to see mile 26 and was ahead, later, of the 4:30 pacer. My friends were there cheering my on and I was all smiles and feeling strong.

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I finished at 4:29:18 and came in 6th place out of 24 in my age group. My goal was 4:30 OR less and I reached it and finished my marathon with a medal and an experience I will NEVER forget!

After that, Erin and I went and took ice baths that we signed up for at a chiropractor place. They had the hot tub filled up with 45 degree water and it felt SO good, hurt, but felt great!


Erin was 6-8 minutes away from qualifying for the Boston, but, with her Kara Goucher training, she PRed by 10 mins from her last marathon. She’s a beast and one of my top inspirations.

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After we changed clothes, we went to Brixx and I had me a 10 inch vegan pizza. May I say, it was my first time there and it was so DANG GOOD!

I also got me a 26.2 marathon sticker made. :)


So all and all, I loved the marathon a lot more than I thought I would. It’s definitely an adrenaline rush and honestly, I highly HIGHLY recommend running one if you are just a half marathoner right now. I loved every minute, pain and all. :) This race, I highly recommend and wouldn’t mind running it again next year, half or full. It’s a perfect race for beginners, informative, on time, and very friendly and encouraging help! :)


Oh, and I’ve tried the new Cookies & Cream Quest Bar. DELICIOUS!

Until we meet again. Soon. Chow! :)





WRIGHTSVILLE BEACH before marathon

Why hello there.

It’s been a little to long, I know. I disconnected my facebook a month ago because I’ve had so much on my mind and wanted to really put my focus on one thing, “First Marathon” between facing runner’s burnout for my first time ever, which is common with marathon training, and numerous kinds of training I knew that I needed to do, yoga, strength, running(speed, tempo, long run), and spinning sessions, it has been a LONG road! But, yet, totally worth it. So get ready for plenty of pictures and a good lengthy good recap on the race. :) Shall we….


After saying farewell to my little town. I headed up to my friend’s house and rode to Wrightsville Beach with them. It was my first time going to this particular beach that is near Wilmington. May I say, it was VERY flat! Then again, I come from a state(Tennessee) full of hills and mountains.


Before I headed out, I got my playlist set up, used my $15 giftcard and also used my older favorite running songs. After all that, I had over 5 hours worth of music for the playlist. I even picked up my Earthlete packet a few weeks ago from Earth Fare that I was accepted into a few months back and couldn’t believe it. :)


My friend Erin was running the marathon and was planning to try and qualify for the Boston marathon and her husband was running the half marathon. So, her and I carb loaded, like crazy. Two of out friends came later to cheer us on and hung out with us some during the weekend.

We had this ginormous bowl of YUM at a restaurant called, “Tower 7″ right near the beach. It was delicious and great if you’re vegan! I don’t usually EVER eat fried food but honestly, I had eaten almost every bit of that.


It was a little chilly but not to bad. The beach was great and I even hunted seashells for my coworkers back at home. I didn’t get in the ocean but Erin and Nena’s husband did for a bit and they said it was quite cold.

We stayed at one of the hotels(Holiday Inn Express) that the race website recommended and for only $80 a night, it was really nice. They even had breakfast started for the runners at like, 3 or 4 am ready.

To be continued…..


Time to Get Truthfully Real (part 1)


This, was my addiction…..


Most of you know where I’m going with this by just looking at this picture.

Most of you have probably heard my story, but, not the details. The dig deep details of the real deal.

I used to be a meat eater, for 18 years actually. I was always more into white meat, but, I still enjoyed some red. I loved a bowl of ice cream almost every night. I loved Smart Ones and Lean Cuisine meals. I loved Taco Bell, KFC, pizza nights, buttered popcorn, Wendys, meatloaf, meatballs, meaty chili, Sonic, blizzards, smoothies from Pals and other places, I had to have dessert almost every time I went out to eat. I mean, I have even eaten, once, a half of one of those cakes that serves 4 people. I still had eaten fruits and vegetables, but usually, I was pretty unhealthy, and I didn’t care really. On my way to the barn to ride my horse, I’d go through the Wendy’s drive thru and get the Kids chicken sandwich with mandarin oranges. I even got McDonald’s BIG breakfast a couple of times. I even was a receptionist once and went out to eat quite often and snacked on mini chocolates and even had eaten on some donuts in the break room. I mean, you name it, I’d pretty much eat it.


I kept gaining weight. Then, it started….

I got a waitressing job and was on the move constantly. The scale came into my life. I stepped on it when my jean sizes started going up.


This was taken in 2010 when I was 134 pounds. Most I’ve ever weighed, so far, now, to some people, that’s not a big number, but, for my height and small frame, it was getting close to over what it should be.

The number on the scale was taking over. Controlling me. Taunting me. Being, well, a god to me.

I started trying to cut carbs out, getting more and more strict with my calories. If I ate a piece of pie I’d tell myself, “No dinner Kayla”.

I snack on veggies at work here and there. I’d eat a big breakfast and then usually not much for several hours until I got home, then, it would just be a salad, rice cakes, or something weird.

I’d step on the scale 3-4 times a day, didn’t like the number, no matter what day, I’d grip on tighter.

I then go to the store and buy chocolate laxatives. Look up stuff on how to make me puke. I’d eat tons of fruit which made me go to the bathroom, not in a good way either.

I’d eat a big meal, then go to the bathroom, stick my fingers in the back of my throat and make myself puke.

I’d starve myself, no matter how weak or tired or irritable I was I didn’t care, my mind was on one thing and one thing only, that NUMBER.

My weight was dropping and my pant sizes were too.

My coworkers and my parents were getting concerned.


Even on Thanksgiving, I skipped on the hearty food and just made my usual salad.

I started to miss my periods, my pants were getting baggy, I was down to 109 lbs, and a size 2. I’d do yoga in the morning, work a waitress job, and then sometimes run when I got home or go to the barn. My fingers started turning white when I went out in the cold and I’d lose a lot more hair than usual when I brushed it.


I then went to the doctor, he told me that I had Raynaud’s Disease and my BMI was under. My OBGYN doctor had to give me the pill to get my periods regulated.

I don’t know when I finally woke up nor how, but, I think it’s when I started to run longer distances, I just loved it, and needed food to give me the energy to do what I loved.

I finally started gaining weight. But, because of the eating disorder, what could’ve put me further into the hole, I am now stuck with Raynaud’s disease the rest of my life and probably the pill.

But, I believe God did that for a reason, so when my fingers turn white, it’ll be a reminder for me.

It was an addiction. I had an addiction. I can tell you this to, almost everyday, I’m reminded of it.

Almost everyday, I’m tempted to go back to my old ways.

But, it’s still fresh, I’m still learning to accept me for me, love my own body and not compare it to others.

But that’s another story…….



1 race, 2 race, 3 race, more races, oh my…..


I’m a little way behind on my past race recap. The only one I’ve done is the “Disney Wine & Dine” but I think it’s time to add all my races I’ve ran with a little info on each one. The ones with the *< are my favorites. I guess I could’ve just said, “star” but oh well. So, while I jam to my older racing/running playlists, lets begin….

I started racing in 2012. But really got into running in, I think, late 2010. :)

1. The 4th of July 4 Miler in my town–40 mins

I love this race because it was my first ever one. It was hot and the course had a challenging hill at the end. But this is one that I plan to stick with. It’s early in the morning too. Which is perfect in the summertime compared to most 4th of July races.

2. Crazy 8’s(5 miles)–44 mins Location: Kingsport, TN

This is the official race that got me hooked into racing. It was at 10:00 pm but it was LIVELY. There are also Kenyans that race on this course. Awesome medals and a whole lot of runners at that. The music is blasting before the race and also some music throughout the course. You’ve got to watch your step though on parts of the course.

3. Unity Race 5k(3 miles)–28 mins 3rd place in age group; Location: Johnson City, TN

This is a fun course. It’s got a mile hill at the start though but overall, I’ve got fond memories on this course. Plus, the lady that leaders out is super nice and the medals are great. :)

4. Haunted Half Marathon– 1hr 59mins; Location: Kingsport, TN

This was my first ever half and my goal was to get under 2 hours and I did. It’s a SUPER flat course with only one very small rolling hill. So it’s a perfect half for a PR or for your first half. :)

5. Chase the Turkey 5k– 23:43; Location: Kingsport, TN

This is a fun course, because it’s mainly on a golf course. Slightly rolling. I also got a PR and I was trying to stay with an older friend of mine that was staying in the 7’s as her pace.Yeah, that definitely helped me. :)

6. Veteran’s Day Classic Half Marathon– 2hrs 3mins; Location: Kingsport, TN

What can I say about this course? HILLS! HILLS! HILLS! I’ve got a serious addiction for hills. I dropped my ipod once and had to turn around and get it. It’s a nice course, no traffic. BUT, if you don’t like hills, or a challenge don’t run it. The medal was a dog tag though, which I thought was very cool. I got a little pendant to since I came in 1st place. :)

7. XTERRA Trail Race Half Marathon— 2hrs 25mins; Location: Bays Mountain in Kingsport, TN

*laughs* This race was a living HELL but honestly, I loved it. When I first arrived, one of my running friends was like, “Kayla, you’re running the half?! Are you sure?!” I smiled and said, “Oh yes.” Some switchbacks, gorgeous bridges to cross, crazy hills, narrow trails, fell 5xs, lost dad’s watch(that I was using before I got my own, yes, it was found, thankfully!) and got scraped up pretty badly but you know what? I don’t care. I’d run it again! I LOVED IT! :)

I even got a big ole beer mug! :P

8. Casa Road Race 8k(5miles)— 42:37; Location: Rogersville, TN

This race I don’t think I’ll EVER forget! Why? It was my first race in 6-7 months since my stress fracture and I freakin killed it with a PR. It had hills but the weather was gorgeous and I was feeling amazing physically/mentally. I even placed and got a cool cup. :) The race goes to a great cause!

9. Phipps Bend 5k– 25 mins; Location: Surgoinsville, TN

This race was super flat and hardly no shade and hot but, eh, okay. It’s one of those blah races that feel more like a typical speed work session than a real race. I came in 3rd place though. :)

10. Bluegrass Half Marathon— 1hr 54mins; Location: Johnson City, TN

I LOVED this race. It’s in one of my favorite locations and had some hills. But, I also ran the course with a couple of friends a couple of weeks before the actual race. It does have some hills and some of it is located on the ETSU campus and just beautiful in some parts. One part has a hill that you can’t even notice it’s one mentally but you can tell physically. A LONG down hill near the end. I ran a PR on this half by 5 mins. Got a cute small medal to that could be more like a keychain but you know, it’s got a great meaning behind it. This was my first real half in months since injury and I killed it. :)

11. Bays Mountain 15 miler– 2hrs 56mins; Location: Kingsport, TN

I LOVED this trail race as well. I got to make friends with an awesome ultra marathoner while I was racing this. I also placed in it as well but took my time on this course because of running another half the next weekend….

12. 4 Bridges Half Marathon– 1:53:35; Location: Chattanooga, TN

I LOVED this half and honestly, I’d probably run it again. Mom and I stayed in Chattanooga Choo Choo which was really cool.

The course was fabulous and really, the only hills were going up to the bridge. Plus, the weekend after another half, I got a PR on this half, which I was impressed after running two half marathons in the same week. Chattanooga is just beautiful and I can’t recommend this race enough! :)

13. Disney Wine & Dine Half Marathon– 2:09; Location: Orlando, FL

I already have a recap for this. But, lesson learned, a race that long at 10 pm, plan out the meals ahead of time and DON’T take your watch on this race! This should be a fun run. I got some pics with characters, but, the usual me, I was just focused more on time. That was a big no no. I didn’t even get to enjoy the after party because I was feeling so sick and we couldn’t find where it was. :( But, I would love to run another one. I just wish it wasn’t so dang expensive. But, eh, that’s Disney.

14. Santa Hustle Smokies Half Marathon– 2hrs 4mins; Location: Gatlinburg, TN

Ever since my last bad half marathon, it was like, all my races started going down hill. But, it was very cold during this race and it was just out and back. It was okay, but not one of my favorites. It did half a couple of big hills but not bad.

15. Covenant Health 5k( 3 miles); Location: Knoxville, TN

I ran this 5k the day after the Color Me Rad 5k. I was running on a stress fracture which was stupid on my part. But, I’d love to run the half marathon. I hear it’s hilly but pretty and well, you know I’m all about them hills. Plus, downtown Knoxville is just beautiful! :)

16. Color Me Rad 5k( 3 miles)

My mom and I and a few others ran this one. I highly recommend it! Yes, it’s a bit on the pricier side for a 5k but worth it. Good race to make memories! A LOT of energy and A LOT of color! It’s just pure fun! :)


The races I had planned out but had to give my registration away because of energy…

The Flying Pig half Marathon in Cincinnati,OH. I got an AWESOME swag bag though with a HUGE lunch box that I use a lot! :)

The Biltmore 15K in Asheville, NC. I did go and watch my mom run the 5k and my two friends and aunt and uncle run the 15k. I heard it was TOUGH. I hope to run it though sometime. :)

Well, there you go, plain and straight to the point. Now, we’re up to date. :)

P.S. I ran some of these races a 2nd time and plan to run a few of them again. :)



Eye opening for the truth. How I really feel…


Have you ever just wondered? Have you ever noticed how certain subjects just keep coming back and back and back? Well, I’ve learned, that when those subjects keep repeating, you know it’s getting serious.

Year before last(late 2012) I started half marathon training.

Now lets go back a little bit more, but not much…


I’d go to a track that I used to walk on with my parents and sometimes others when I was younger. It was just usually me, myself, and my music. Sometimes, deer would be near by. I’d just run, think, and enjoy myself. I’d work my way up to a mile, with a struggle of course, but did it. The miles grew longer and soon I was running outside of the track, again, by myself. I have always been the loner type. Not in a bad way, just who I’ve always been and have appreciated it. I’ve not always, until now. Because I’m okay with running by myself at times.

I ran my first ever race, on July 4, 2012, that was a 4 mile race, in my little hometown.


I thought it was okay, I did it in 40 mins, which isn’t bad. (gotta love the K-swiss).

I then stepped it up to an 8k(Crazy 8’s) race(5 miles) and the energy all around me officially got me hooked into racing.


I then decided to try a half marathon through Fleet Feet in August 2012. I got a little to hooked. I was becoming obsessed and it was causing me to get injured. I also did Insanity dvds during the training and the days I was scheduled to run. But I couldn’t stop. I was starting to get an injury here and there on my right leg. It would heal, another new one would come. Then, in Feb. 2013, I was training(or so I thought, for a full) and I decided to go meet a friend in her town and run 16 miles, granted, my right ankle was already causing me to limp. I limped that whole 16 miles and wasn’t going to finish till it was completed. You could say that I was done for and that I was following morning. I was in pain when I turned over in bed, walked on it felt like a broken bone. An X-Ray didn’t help nor did an MRI until later. Sure enough, it was a stress fracture on my fibula. I was out for 6 months almost and cross trained like crazy. I did weights in the morning, pool run during lunch, and biked in the evenings. It was killing me inside though and the doctors, parents, and friends/coworkers had to repeat to me over and over to take care of that ankle. I refused to use crutches after the first few days. I was stubborn as hell heck!


After I was healed, I came back stronger than ever and PRed 2-3 races in ONE month! By the grace of God, support, and cross training like crazy.

Now, even though after that, I’m still having pains here and there and it really does hurt me physically/emotionally/mentally. Running is who I am, running is my escape, running is my love.

I don’t even want to see all my medical bills put together with all my injuries. I LOVE cross training too.

I was born from a family that is stubborn and I am VERY stubborn. I love to push myself to the point of breaking, yes, I know it’s stupid, but, it’s just who I am. It’s what was put into me before I was born. Physical challenges is my specialty. I’m not the quickest runner, but I’ll go and go and go until my heart would give way probably. I love the rush, the endurance, the challenge, the excitement, etc. But, I’m breaking inside. My legs don’t feel like they used to when I was running out of enjoyment.

My medals that I see, each have a story of their own. My next BIG one is my first full marathon, God willing. But, after that, I’m probably going to retire from the training plans, set my goal races to the side, and take a step back. Half marathons will still probably be in my future and who knows, I’d LOVE to run an ultra someday, God willing and if my body will accept it.

Running is meant for everyone, under certain circumstances. We’re all different. Different pace. Different race to love. People love 5ks, some love 8ks, some love 10ks, some love half marathons, full marathons, ultras, etc. But me, I just want to go back to where I was before.

I will run races again perhaps, but after my first full marathon race, I’ll be on a different journey, a journey to find the freedom and love I once had in running. The feeling of new legs every time I step foot into my new running shoes, the “no planned mileage” run, no injuries, just the way it was before.

Then who knows, a race may call my name again….

Until then, for now, it can wait. I’m in my 20s anyway, no rush, races are all around.

To my running friends reading this though, RUN ON! :)


“Running is about finding yourself. When the clock takes over, you have found nothing. When you have found nothing, a runner is then lost, until the clock stops.”–Me